What a crappy couple of...
What a crappy couple of years BUT does it get me down??? Meh kinda lol:
Ok so you've got a fantastic life!! You have a great partner 2 gorgeous kids and a family who are more amazing than they'll ever know, but seriously what went wrong with everything else?
Friends
Granted I changed alot more than the rest of my school friends but two that I thought would be there forever have completely vanished from my life.... They know who they are and i hope one day they realise what they've lost. When I first had my son these two wonderful girlies were there all the time they rushed up to hospital and saw me. They cried with me when I cried over how poorly he was, they laughed at me when my boobs were leaking in the middle of town which was great but then when the baby sick and smelly nappies got realistic and the fact that I had to grow up it all changed. Now I'm lucky to have one text every six months and thats being optimistic.
I do have one amazing friend who I speak to everyday and loves my talk bout sleepless nights so yay!!!
Family
I love my family (mum and sisters) more than anything and it breaks my heart to ever see them struggling, my mum is so brave and gave up everything she had to make life better for her girls YOU GO MUM!!! But now they have to live with my nana and amazingly enough they never ever moan, i love having them back in chezvegas its amazing LIVERPOOL was soooooo far away. My sisters are all working fantastically hard at college and school and i just wish I could do something amazing for them like they've done for me.
Me and Gary
Most of the time we're very happy but on the odd occassion things can be really really hard, i'm sure its understandable having two babies under 3 working and having me as a girlfriend cant be a walk in the park.
My Children: Brogan
Ok so on a daily basis i'm tackling the "TERRIBLE TWOS" which are so much worse than anyone ever warned me lol from head butting the floor and slamming doors, or "SHUT UP MUM" oh yea mum not mummy anymore I'm sure i'll be Teresa before long then again if I'm honest it already happens lol but he lightens up my life when he sayd something funny or just gives me a kiss one thing i can say already is they're not children two mins so make the most of them
Maddie:
And then there's my baby girl Maddie-May..... she has brought so much joy to my life but also brought so much fear, when my little angel was born the odds were all stacked against her, she weighed a mere 4lb which was sooooo tiny I could hold her in one arm and not know she was there.... but then came the bigger problems.... we were warned that there could be loads of problems and I spent hours and hours beating myself up searching for possible conditions they'd suggested just think how you'd feel to be told that your precious little girl was ill or that she had a genetic condition that would change her whole perspective on life. But we were string as a family and I thank my baby sisters Rie Natalie and Victoria for all their help when things were tough and my mummy for everything she was willing to do for us. Thankfully though there doesnt appear to be anything that drs can put their fingers on which selfishly I am so grateful for, one day that might all change but for now she's perfect!!
So thats that there's not many things I moan about so thought i'd cram it into one blog
Love n Stuff
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