Oh my god what to do what to do!!! What should I do,if something feels right is it still wrong? When will I ever stop judging myself? When will I start acting like a 21 year old instead of trying to be what I think everyone else wants? I just dont know what to do any more!!! I think I'm gonna be on my own forever I cant believe how much I feel like a kid and want to do something so bad but am too scared of diasappointing everyone but its my life my choices and if I make a mistake then its mine to make. RAWR I cant believe how much I judge myself I'm my biggest critic so what if everyone else thinks its wrong I'd not be doing anything wrong I havent been on my own for a very long time and there's someone out there who quite likes me and I am leading him on and then pushing him away RAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWR would i be thinking like this if I wasnt a mum and just 21 I dont know probably I dont know GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
Love and Stuff XXXX
I feel as though I dont really use vox to its full potential but then again I'm a rather boring person haha or at least I felt as though I was turned into one. But god help you all the real Teresa is on her way back into your lifes and I warn you the sense of humour is sharper than even!!
I am so happy and excited lately because my confidence is coming back thick and fast and with that so are all my old friends, I missed them all so much and felt so guilty bout not seeing them but it just wasnt worth the arguing but no worries people no one will ever make me feel that way again if nothing else he's made me a stronger person which I hope he hates.
My mum who is my voice of reason said to me that I would feel better soon and that people would notice a difference lets see what you all think bearing in mind I am only just 21.
This is me a year ago and it only got worse until my baby sister (who is fabulous took me until her wing and helped me) decided to bring the real me back.
It was a long process lol but it turned out like this.........
This is me now.... I'm far more confident I have lost weight, I've got hair I've always wanted but weren't aloud its pink and black by the way, I never leave the houde without make up on now and for the last two years I've legged it from eye liner haha
I'm back with avengance and god help anyone who hurts me or my family again, it wont go down well!!
Thanks Mum, Marie, Natalie, Victoria Your all angels dont know where I'd be without you all
Love and Stuff
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